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Chinook SSSF
07-08-2009, 12:08 AM
Seem to always sneak up when you least expect. For me today started out the same as any other fishing afternooner I plan with me, myself and I and for the most part was fine but somewhere in the later part of the day things just kind of fell apart sending me heading home with a new outlook on humnaity and to some extent life in general. In spite of all that finaly did end up occuring and in all was not enough to really warrant me getting upset, I am proud of myself for exercising constraint and doing my best to move on to the next corner or hole or act.

I had decided to fish the nameless river [because it just doesn't really matter] near my home town like do on most summer days. I ran into a friend from another part of the river and had a great conversation but in the midst of doing so I had hardly noticed the guy with a pole and a cigarette in one hand and a 24 oz bottle of beer in the other step out on an island directly infront of me making it a bit of a challenge to fish at all, even with a 10 foot float rod. I asked him jokingly if he insisted we get our feet wet to step out there and fish but his response was as worthless as the brand of beer he favored. My friend and I laughed as we shook our heads in a comical disgust. There was only one way to deal with this guy peacefully so off I went to the next spot. Looked back as I walked away and the guy had already filled the spot I left behind.

Still having found no fish I opted to visit some old friends that live along the river and ask nicely for permission to throw a few casts. I had a bit of history with these folks and thought it would be ok. Gate was open so I nervously went on up and spoke with them. It had been some time since I had seen them and so they said not today. A nice conversation followed and once again off I went. The older I get the more I see how easy it is to drift apart from people you knew in a past chapter of your life but somehow I just though I would have been more well recieved. Driving back up the road a bit heart broken I came to a spot where previously when I came by 3 drunk guys had been playing with their balls in the street. I did not see any baskets, it appeared as if an empty 24oz budweiser beer can was suitable target. They where still there when I came back and I thought Ohh "G" here we go. The first time I came through I drove very slow, a crawl rather, to give them time to get off the road. I really did not want to talk to these loosers and so I only slowed down enough to get by them on the second round and instead of moving their drunk tails out of the road the tuff one preceeded to yell at me to slow down through my window from 3 feet away at the top of his lungs. My first reaction was, ok this is just getting to be to much to take but just keep driving, dont stop or someone is hurting......keeping my frustrated and upset pride well within the bounds of my shirt tail having not injured anyone...yet...I drove on thinking ..."ok man whatever"....

Heading onward I just lost my ambition entirely to bother even fishing anymore for this night. Even though a few hours of available light remained, the light of fishing ambition had since drained away. I had not found any fish anyways and thought maybe it would just be best to try harder some other day with a fresh start. Even then I could not seem to make it into our parking lot without some group of little white Greshamite teenager biker gang kids with their pants falling of their tails yelling loud profanity at me for just no reason at all. They [the white renegade biker gang] did however cease to frill my feathers any longer when they spotted the 2 young hispanic girls walking down the street. I assume a much better target as they offered up terms like mexican [nice word for prostitute] something and skanky [nice word for flat garden rake] something. I am used to that sort of thing here at home in Gresham but the mantality twords me I found driving and fishing around the countryside somehow caught me well off guard. This time, at home, it was their [the white renegade biker gang] own constraint, on not returning to confront the young ladys for their defensive slander that allowed me to keep my cool.

Thinking back on the day it all seemed harmless now and not so bad, no big deal. I mean life is good for the most part. I could care less about not finding any fish and as I mentioned had a nice conversation with friends, well sorta. Unloading the rig in the parking lot of the palace I live in, reflecting on the days events, that were each a different story, the only thought that could cross my mind was....."I just wanted to ******* go fishing :confused:"

Guess this day was a real sneaker pants eh? Well I can be proud that I did not let the day get to me or get me anymore down than that of this simple writing and infact in some ways writing this may have been just the soak I needed to move on. If you knew me, you would know what an accomplishment that really is :cool:

Stay cool folks

ryank
07-08-2009, 11:02 AM
It seems that in the summer these dip s#its crawl out of the wood work it is to bad it drives me crazy to see all the trash,beer cans & cig butts these people leave on the river I just cant imagine having that mentality but I guess those would be the same kind of people that do what happened to you yesterday eff them! and good job on not letting those idiots get to you too bad those situations are frustrating:mad: Ryan

kingfisher20
07-08-2009, 11:50 AM
This is what happens, when we live in a culture that places the highest value on doing what makes you happy. When we do that, then we place others values and well-being below ours, and anytime our own agenda, or idea of happiness is hindered by others, they become the enemy. We wanna drink our beers in the road, and so the people driving on the road should get off... we want to fish a certain hole, so the fact that someone else already has the hole doesn't matter... we've seen too many people ripping up the river so this guy who we used to let fish on our land has become just another river-trasher to us... It's sad Matthew, I know, but your response is really the one that wins in the end. If we choose to fight these people, it doesn't in the least instill in them anymore respect for what we hold dear, it just gives them a greater sense of indignation. They'll only come to their senses when their whole paradigm on life changes... when they stop seeing themselves as the center of life, and actually see others as more important. Keep up the good work bro, and keep letting writing be the outlet; it's the healthy way to deal.
peace

Arctic
07-08-2009, 01:07 PM
Wow. That is a great piece KF.

We all have crappy days, and we SHOULD deal with it. Not repress the feelings/emotions. Dealing with it in a healty manner of course is a very mentally productive method. Writing/recording the days events can really help pull things back into perspective, helps you to see it from the outside. No doubt Nathan. Good post man.

Chinook SSSF
07-08-2009, 02:05 PM
Yea very well put Nathan...very well, in that "until their paradingy of life changes", that means a great deal. Writing did help, never tried that before, nor have I ever put a personal rant of that type on this or any other forum in my life. I just felt it might be a good story for those who know me and how I see things. Change for the positive is a difficult task for some of us but I at least now am finding myself trying more to cope or simply walk away from what ails and annoys me in my surrounding environment.

I also recognized something along the lines of what Nathan pointed out. I found that I did not consider the chapters in their lives that lead them to the way they are, that is in conflict with me. In my mind what I was really questioning was why me....and that is a mook point. It is lost in translation because it is pure coincidence, Passing lanes. Also in the paradigm life, their lives. Who am I to conflict with their interest even if wrong. If it is legal than it is only a dispute over a personal opinion which is always the road that leads to no where.

There may be much truth to the ole saying "Ignorance is bliss" but for those of us who have a strong set of moral values and beliefs and fish warrior creeds we live by, tolerance for such ignorance is what causes inner conflict, now only to learn how to deal with it the right way every time. I did my best to do so last night......And as of right now I feel I did the right thing. I also feel it is now important to tell ourselves that is not the cowardly way, it is the smart warrior way.

Feeling much better today and looking forward to a few trips this week that should prove to be exciting for both me and the network

thanks for the input